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[Feb. 22nd, 2005|12:05 pm] |
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ok so I feel like shit....and it is for a number of different reasons....the flu for one.....I miss my mother more than words right now for two...and I don't want to let go of someone but I just can't bere to be treated like shit when I am with someone. Dude I seriously can't even express how angry I am and it takes alot for me to get pissed and for someone to seriously upset me....jacob did it....and now brian has and frankly I am wondering if there is ever going to be a guy in my future who is going to love and apressiate me the way I disserve. Well so much for my emotional ramblings but for the physical stuff....my body is dead....I am tired, stressed, sick and over worked so I am going to sleep the rest of the day and forget about guys....they suck......so does the flu......anyways I figured since everyone is trying to make me feel better now that I feel like shit they could just leave a nice sweet little comment here and I will greatly appresiate that....ooo and the only good thing is by the end of this week I am expecting my brand new cell phone which is something that I have been looking forward to since the beggining of this month....leave some love for me if you care.....
love
jordan
!!!!!!!words of the day!!!!!!!!!
When life is too easy for us we must beware or we may not be ready to meet the blows which sooner or later come to everyone, rich or poor.
Eleanor Rosivelt |
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[Feb. 13th, 2005|09:56 pm] |
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ok so today was definitly interesting.....I got to be with someone that i have missed forever but I still felt bad about not spending time with my boyfriend this weekend. Like i felt like I never got to see him and I just missed him so much. But everything turned around after matt stopped harrassing me last night. I am super exited about tomorrow and I don't even know whats going on. I hope I won't be dissapointed and I will definitly let you all know how it goes. But until then I am super tired and super bored. I was thinkning about going running but I am waiting on a phone call at the moment so I am going to show u guys the results of the quiz's I am taking at quizilla.com....enjoy
The Goddess of Fire and Happiness. You are a ball
of energy. Always compassionate and full of
life, you can make anyone feel happy and you
are exceptionally uplifting. You are an
individual beauty.
Which gorgeous goddess are you? For girls! (breath taking pics!)
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Aphrodite/Eros
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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You're the high class girl. You're elegant,
sophisticated, and enjoy the luxuries of life.
You are confident, fair, and diplomatic. You
could be royalty for all I know. People like
you a lot, but be sure they don't like you for
your money or anything. That's bad. Pick out
your real friends from the crowd.
What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
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E:Your Beauty lies
in Mystery. Captivating, mysterious and alone. You
are the girl in the little
black number that no one seems to know, the eternal
mystery girl. You make it a
point to never let anyone know more about you than
you want them to and do a
very good job of it. You're there one minute and
gone the next leaving them in
wonder of who you really are. A mature and normally
calm individual, quiet and
enjoy spending many hours of the day on your own,
most likely preferring night
to day . You love the dark and some may find you a
bit strange. You seem to be
rather distant and cold making hard for people to
get close to you, though you
probably like the distance they usually keep. You
probably wear make-up, but
concentrate more around your eyes than anything.
You know the effect you have
and enjoy keeping people in wonder.
Some Things
That Represent You:
Element:
Dark, Water Animal: Panther Color:
Black, Maroon, Dark
Tones Song: In The Shadows by The Rasmus
Expression:
Sly Smile
Gemstone:
Black Diamond Mythological Creature: Demon,
Vampire Planet: Venus
Hair Color: Black Eye Color:
Garnet
Quote:
"In the shadows for all time."
Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
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You're Lili St. Cyr!
What Classic Pin-Up Are You?
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hug from behind - you like to feel what the other
person is feeling and see things how they see
them. you tend to be serious and emotional.
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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You're a very mellow, care-free person. Your
exactly what calm, cool, and collected mean.
You never overreact or panic in a bad situation
and you always know what to do. Everyone goes
to you for advice because you never lose your
head so your very reliable. You tend to take
everything in stride, like in school your moto
is just sit back and relax not to say you dont
pay attention and work, but you dont overexert
yourself. Even though people come to you for
counciling(sp?) you can still be very quite,
your not good with making new friends, but your
extremely close to the ones you have. Remember
its ok to put your emotions out there even
though there is a chance they might get hurt.
Also in school sometimes its good to stress out
a little, just because you think you dont need
to study doesnt mean you should'nt, and also
try to push yourself more even though you might
be good where you are doesnt mean you can,t be
better. Check out my new YYH Series ~A
Bleeding Heart~
Whats Your Personality(with PICS)
brought to you by Quizilla
hope u enjoyed I was very bored as you can tell...oh well tomorrow should be better
love
jordan |
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| hey everyone |
[Jan. 30th, 2005|05:18 pm] |
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Well my cell still hasn't come yet but I will be getting it pretty soon....oh well my mom is tired and busy so I can understand that it might take awhile to get here. Any ways I have had the best weekend and even though I fell rollerskating I still have the best time...man I swear i cant breathe just thinking about it! Well I think only a handful of ppl kno why but thats perfectly fine. I think my life has seriously turned around and its all because of one person...no not jacob for once...brian! I promised myself I would never feel the same way but just when I thought my life couldn't get any worse he just appeared and I have been so happy. I just wish my mom is doing somewhat ok. But until then I would greatly apreshiate all those people who think that sending me pictures via e-mail of soilders over there will make me feel better...please don't. Its hard enough catching a poster in the mall or a commercial on tv about this bull shit in iraq let alone seeing pictures that make me cry. so if that could stop who ever u are that would be greatly appressiated.....gotta go run off some of these feelings...love ya
mj |
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| Hey everyone... |
[Jan. 20th, 2005|04:54 pm] |
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Man I am so swamped and sad but suprising happy and I think the only reason is the really nice ppl here in Neenah...I mean seriously my mom is in Iraq My first love and I are over and I feel so unwanted and empty and worthless but it seems like when I go to school and get all ingrossed in schoolwork I have no social life and I get way to stressed but then I think of all the wonderful people that make my life so much easiler and just so much more fun....you know who u are! And even though I miss my friends so much back home I feel some comfort in knowing that alittle peice of them are in these people here in Wisconsin who are unknowningly making my like better. I thank you and seriously Brian you make my lonely days a big laughing feast, even when we are doing something as stupid as Chemestry....anyways lol things have been going great here in Neenah and My social life is just going to skyrocket after tomorrow lol well I just have to get through this swamp of homework and then I will be clear to have fun all of tomorrow...Yay I can't wait til someone gets on lol hopefully I will be even more happier my next week when I have a sleep over with the awesomemist person in the world.
love ya
mj
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glen is a fat fairy of love that kills everyone he sees((dont ask)) |
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| back to school!!!! |
[Jan. 3rd, 2005|04:38 pm] |
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back to school everyone and you know what that means....homework....for once I think I need to do it and I am actually looking forward to getting it done...suprising I know and so not like me. Well after having the entire break to think about things I am seeing that my life here is what I make of it...it is like a piano, what i get out of it depends on how I play it. I could always look at the bad of things and long to be in the life that i love or I could look at it this way...I have a who new chance to be with people that are nice and amazing and have really taken me in and made me feel like home here...the only thing that i am going to allow myself is the chance to think about the fun memories of Mt. rainer and even though I wish with all my heart to be back in seattle I think to myself Neenah isn't horrible. I still miss all my friends and loved ones terribley but I know that this is not final and I knwo taht I will be home for the summer for quite some time and I will visit everyone...well I am off I have something that needs to get done and even though I am scared shittless i have to or I could be in serious trouble((don't ask i am not about to explain only a select few will know)) love everyone and see you later....
mj
^^^^^^^^^words of the day^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
the next time u think that your parents or parent((in my case)) will be there for you during something serious...question your relationship...so when something does come up u don't get hurt |
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| happy new years!!!! |
[Jan. 1st, 2005|07:31 pm] |
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hey everyone,
wow its funny how when one aspect of ur life goes completely wonderful another one goes to shit withen an hour to....I am seriously scared that things are going to get ugly and the only thing that is keeping me from running away is the fact that i will see my mother in less than 3 weeks...man I miss her..and the shitty thing is that its so different and I miss being back home in my own house with my own rules..I just can't belive that my dad thinks that i have been raised by my mother improperly and that i am imature. what the hell is that...he has never had a daughter before in his life so why would he know who I am or what i am like. anyway enough with the bad...the good news is that I have had alot of comfort from the people that i love most. My mother my lover and my best friends have really helped me and are still helping me through this rocky time with daddy. Oh how I hate him...but 16 months will fly by and believe me I am not going to listen to him or respect him...only when i have to. the funny thing is that i know that at the end of these 16 months I will be overwelmed with joy over the fact that I am going to be back in the life that i love. It seems so far away but as long as the people that i love keep loving me I will make it through these dark days in subberbia. lol I am really liking the people at neenah it is my one escape besides dance, from the parental unit. well I am exasted and alittle on the hung over side from yelling so much....good night to all and I hope that life is treating you kinder than it is to me right now....love ya and happy new years
mj
...........If you didn't kiss the one you were supposed to on new years, I feel for ya, my true kiss is 5 states away...........but not for long........... |
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| doing so much better..... |
[Dec. 22nd, 2004|04:17 pm] |
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well I am feeling so much better the only thing that sucks about my life is that I am away from carina my mom and Jacob....but i am slowly starting to come to turms with the fact that they are gone and I am fitting in quiet well here in old Neenah Wisconisn....its hard though because though i have plenty of friends i still feel different like i stand out and maybe thats because of who I am and because i naturally stand out but its becoming a good thing so I like the fact that i am. School is finally out and I am going to Florda in alittle under 4 hours so I am exited that i get to lay on a beach all day and fry my body till my hearts content,.....lol which is what i plan on doing.....lol well I will se you all later and hope that everyone isn't as unfortunate as me and you get to be with your loved ones this christmas because I won't....love you all and Merry Christmas
mj
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never upset glen...he will come after you with an Ice cream scoop |
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| I am in wisconsin!!! |
[Dec. 12th, 2004|04:50 pm] |
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man I don't know were to begin and how to express the pain and regret that i feel. I just keep seeing what i am missing back home and its so hard to say that i dont miss it because i do. I dont know if anyone has really cared about me and you really have to go through something hard to see if people will be there by your side. I know that if I dont get what i am giving then i have to move on so thats what i am doing...i am making new friends here. I am making a social life here and i am slowly starting to leave my feelings for the people who have hurt me behind in seattle, please if u really care tell me because i feel like shit right now....my mom is in iraq, my dad is an asshole and i dont know if my friends back home really care about me so if u are one of them please tell me becuase i and so depressed right now i dont know what i am going to do....
see ya
jordan |
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[Oct. 12th, 2004|02:35 pm] |
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man...things have been so crazy lately its not even funny...i am so overwelmed and even though my classes are easy it makes for alot of homework when you cram them all into one sitting...i felt stupid today because i didnt know much about the government but thats ok because i never really got it in the first place and everyone needs to not no something major right? oh well I will hope to understand it more as i study but knowing myself after the test it goes right back were it came from and i will forget...i had a blast over at carina's last week exept for alittle top roman incident but after that we had a good time...it sucks though because my mom is out of town for the next 6 days and i have nothing to do....like no one is going to come over and i can't go anywere so it really sucks...i could sneak out which is what i plan on doing but...with whom? any sugestions...oh well i gotta go and jump into so pretty sucky stuff but i hope that it will all change this weekend...tootles
love
mj
$$$$$$$$words of the day$$$$$$$$$$
NEVER...I MEAN NEVER say cubby bunny it sucks for me and i will hit you if u say it and know what it means....its so not fun |
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[Sep. 30th, 2004|10:03 pm] |
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WE WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
awesome man i seriously am so happy I have a date and I really want to go to homecoming now.....but jacob and carina arnt going which sucks. But oh well i am so happy....what really sucks though is trying to move 2 huge ass couchs down our condo stairs and lifting them into the back of a truck. i have got nothing more to say becuas i am freaking tired after homecoming and doing manual labor so good night everyone and talk to u later
love
mj |
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